29 January 2013

Exhausted

I kind of went back and forth on posting about this, but in the end I've decided to mention it here because this is supposed to be kind of like a diary. I don't know why I feel a little embarrassed about it - it is what it is and I can't help it.

For the past little while I have been feeling more and more tired and run down, weak, and foggy brained. I eventually went to the doctor for some blood tests when I became so fatigued that I couldn't actually function normally. The doctor said she'd run the tests but actually thinks they will come back clear - she has diagnosed me with exhaustion (hey, like a celebrity! Except in my case it doesn't mean I'm actually in rehab.)

I guess the past 2-3 years have thrown enough at me that my body has reached its limits. I don't know why I feel embarrassed about it ... I mean, I have been dealing with a lot:
  • trying to sell two houses in a dead market (in the end selling one and renting the other out)
  • all of the stress of getting our residency visas
  • moving to the other side of the world and all of the loss and stress that entails
  • being on my own for 4.5 months while Grant was in Wellington shortly after immigrating to NZ
  • taking on (and later quitting) a part time job on top of working on 3 business and 2 blogs
  • church responsibilities
  • having 3 months of houseguests
  • being forced to move house
  • kids on 7 week summer holiday, Christmas and more guests
So I guess I am just running on empty at the moment. My doctor did say that two of the things that take the most toll on the body are pregnancy and emigration (who knew?) She has prescribed lots and lots of rest, no more than half an hour gentle walking as far as exercise goes, and sleep. *Sigh* It's so frustrating to not be able to do the things I am used to, and to feel so useless.

I guess one of the reasons I wanted to mention it on here is that I have a whole list of blog posts I am excited about, but no energy to actually get them done. Please bear with me - I will do my best to keep providing quality content but can't promise the same pace as I've kept in the past.

I'll get there eventually!!

Dandelion


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15 comments:

  1. don't forget that working out helps boost energy... but don't overdo it.

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  2. Sending hugs, you take care of yourself hunny xxx

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  3. I hope you get rested and feel better soon. I know exactly what you are dealing with. Four years ago my husband and I had two grandchildren arrive at our door needing responsible people to care for them. They are now 13 and 15 and very active in school, church, Scouts and sports. Last year my husband had a stroke and I was forced to quit my job to care for him and lost 1/2 of our income. The stuggle to be the responsible person for an invalid and two teens is at times over-whelming. My husband is now in the end-stage of Parkinson's disease and we are living day to day. So take care of yourself. And try to not take on so much. Say 'no' once in awhile. :)

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  4. Aw, take care of yourself! We'll still be here! Cheering you on - and sleep some for me!

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  5. Take care of yourself! You always seem to be running around making all these wonderful projects that I love to read about - but rest is good, too! Enjoy paperbacks in your hammock and I hope you feel better soon :)

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  6. Just take care of yourself, Jen. At the end of the day, you are the most important thing in your life. Swinging in your hammock with a good paperback sounds like a great idea. Get well soon. Jude.x

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  7. When you're down and troubled and you need a helping hand
    and nothing, whoa, nothing is going right.
    Close your eyes and think of me and soon I will be there to brighten up even your darkest nights.

    You just call out my name, and you know where ever I am
    I'll come running to see you again.
    Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you have to do is call and I'll be there, yeah, yeah,
    you've got a friend.

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  8. It will take a while for your mind and your body to sync, in your head you can do all these things but your body just wont let you. I'm beat today so I'm spending the day in bed and resting, but it has taken me a year to learn to recognise and obey the signs my body sends me. And don't feel bad, exhaustion is a real thing, even if people cant see it, its still real. At first I felt a bit guilty and almost deceptive because mine is not an obvious illness, but eventually I learned to accept that I am better for having said no and slowing down and letting some things go and it freed you from the guilt and I stoped caring what people think. I hope you find that too. Hugs, thanks for the chat last night. Love you.

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  9. Oh Jen, I wish i was there to help. Just take care of yourself, you need to rest (enjoy that and read!). Just do what you can. x

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  10. Glad you can see why your are so exhausted, women in general can be so hard on them selves, hope rest helps xx

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  11. Glad you got a diagnosis that can be easily treated! I hope you are able to rest and let your husband and boys take on some of the many things you do to keep your home running.

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  12. Hope you are able to rest. Take care.

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  13. I was struggling with energy levels a while back. I started having linseed which is good for increasing energy. I used ground linseed in my smoothies and porridge. It won't improve things straight away, but it seemed to help me. Hope you are feeling better soon x

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  14. Jen, I sure hope you get rested up, and to feeling better soon!

    Thank you for posting this. Sometimes bloggers just share the "pretty" part of life. It feels good to know that I am not the only one who gets worn down occasionally.

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